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Another weekend just in the house .NEED NEW PEOPLE TO BE AROUND A.S.A.P . There's nothing wrong with the people I know , I just need new people to kick it with . It sucks because once you get used to saying 'hey let's go here' and someone was always down ,no matter how long ago that has been you still want it . I was introduced to it and it's literally a challenge ti accept anything less than that smh .

I just want to do the little things again.. go see movies again , walk the waterfront , go to the mall and run errands smh . Am i asking for too much ?

Transformation

  I have been feeling down lately (past two years lol) so sometimes I like to get a little pretty and go . I didn't do anything too crazy but there is CERTAINLY a difference . YIKES !! 

Hair:
Random shampoo (they all do the same to me )
Treseme Conditioner for curls 
Grape Seed Oil
Shea Moisture Smoothie
Shea Moisture Curl Milk

Face:

Revlon Colorstay Foundation in Caramel

L.A Girl PRO.conceal in Fawn

Milani Baked Blushes in Bellisimo Bronze

Eyebrows:

Maybelline Eye Studio gel eyeliner in Brown

Cleaned them up with NYX full coverage foundation in Tan (HATE HALO brows)

Eyes:

Maybelline Eye Studio gel eyeliner for waterline in Blackest Black

Rimmel Mascara .. the one with the lime green top

Lips:

Clear Gloss

Today I am about to revamp some things . I wake up and see the same things every damn day . It is depressing and tiresome.My room can not stay clean . Everything is just a mess. Idk just yet what Im going to do but something has to give . Annoyed as hell . What's even more annoying is that I am a fun person but don't have one person to be fun with . The one person I would love to have fun with is ..... well that is a whole different story .I NEED NEW PEOPLE IN MY LIFE . I watch youtube videos and the vlogs are so dope . These people aren't even doing anything crazy but they are living . I am alive but far from living . I'm giving myself another hour to mope around but after that I need to get up and do something . I have yet to be on a good routine for working out , looking nice .. etc . THAT SHIT MUST STOP TODAY .

J.O.B

"what's the word for the day ?.. J.O.B"

What the hell ? I have been in search for a decent job for what seems like forever and nothing is happening smh .I desperately need money . Although I am never without money , who wouldn't want a guaranteed pay check every two weeks ? Kind of discouraging .

Goal to apply for at least 10 jobs daily . Let's see how that goes.

Write it down .. make it happen.

I read bits and pieces of the book but I assume the basis is writing down what you want / need and making it happen .

So what I want/ need A.S.A.P

-finish school

-get a job

-get serious about these castings for me and King

-exercise at least 5 times a week . NO SLACKING . NO EXCUSES. 

-MEET NEW PEOPLE.

-figure out my career moves 

The list can go on and on but these are the things I need to do like last year .

yikes.

A little about myself...

I'm just a 23 yr old mother to Kingsley , trying to find my way in this brutal world . I live in Paterson , New Jersey . BLAH. I like doing any and everything basically. I will probably try anything once . I am an open book , knowledgeable ,very transparent and I like to believe I am a good person . I'm sure some people out there beg to differ . SHRUGS .. I am a lover of love , fashion , diy , art , exploring , music ...etc. I am an emotional hot mess lol . I have a lot of tendencies I really hate about myself but here I am trying to get my life so at least that's a start. . 

ALLLLRIGHTY THEN ..

I'm Tasha and I need to GET MY LIFE . NOW. Seriously . Past couple years I let myself hit rock bottom for me and I desperately need that to change . Starting this blog will hopefully help me because living in a rut when you are fully capable of doing things to change it is pretty pathetic . So , I don't want to be pathetic anymore lol . 

It doesn't look the best right now but I will continuously make changes until I get it to where I want it to be.

The things I will talk about in this will be ... Relationships , Healthy & Fitness , Beauty , Natural hair , Fashion ,Children , rants and raves... basically anything I want to talk about at the moment . 

SOOOOOO yea .... lets go !